Here I am again. I mean at the clinic, working. We are not too busy tonight, so I have time to post something here... I haven't been so good at it lately.
The only thing helps me through the shifts coming that next Thursday I am flying back to Hungary to visit my Mum. I haven't seen her since May and she was complaining. Bless her. I am gonna be there for 5 days. I can't wait. Just out of here.
Uneventful day, I was at the gym twice and on the way home, tired, waiting for the bus I was wondering about the people in Birmingham and generally as well. The other day Dan (Have I talked about him already? I think I have. He is my housemate.) asked me whether I would go out with a guy whom I am not physically attracted to. I said it depended on how the guy looked like. I mean I don't have any problem with a little belly or love handle. As long as someone does some kind of excercise and looks after himself, a little excess is perfectly fine. However, if someone is really obese and it is not a condition due to some medical problem, I would say, it is unacceptable for me. I am sorry, but eating junk food, drinking fizzy drinks with loads of sugar in it or beer and not doing any activity or sport, the is definitely put me off. I was walking to the bus stop today and saw these homes at the neighbourhood of the gym. Small flats or houses occupied by people on low income most likely. And I saw a few inside as the doors were open. They were dirty and untidy. Don't get me wrong, I think if somebody is poor or has a low income, there is nothing shameful in it. Nothing. Not all of us lucky enough to be born to or brought up to the circumstances when one can go to the university to have a well paid job afterwards. So being poor is not shameful. However not cleaning the place where you live, just like eating and drinking junk and not doing any excercise is something one should be ashamed. Before I went to the US, I was prepared that I would see lots of fat people, because that is what I knew about the country. Honestly, I saw more overweight people here in Birmingham, than in New York and Milwaukee altogether in 6 weeks. I know very well that the way we eat and what we eat is something we brought from our childhood. That is why I am outraged when I see parents giving chips and other bad food to their kids. I have never seen a kid chewing on a piece of carrot or apple here. I have never seen a kid drinking plain water here. Sometime I would like to shout to them that 'you stupid cow, how can you ruin your kid's life and health'.
I couldn't chat with Gary to much today, he has guests in his apartment now and he has to do his shows as well, so he is pretty busy, bless him. I miss him so much, but even though it is not that bad. You know, when there is someone out there and you know and most importantly feel that you are loved, it does not matter if you are not actually with the Loved One. In the past when I had a partner, I felt that I had to be in contact with him all the time... Text messages, emails or calls... Now with Gary it is different! Certainly I want to be with him, but as long as I know he is alright and doing what he needs to do, I am happy. I know that there will be a time when we are going to live together and I will see him more, so I can wait. You always have to wait for the good things in life!!!
All my nurses are in bed and sleeping, we don't have too many inpatients (one cat with human painkiller poisoning, an other cat with fractured pelvis, a dog with a fish hook in the throat and a cat with fractured leg) and they don't need constant monitoring, so it is quiet now. I am still up though, writing this and then doing some admin work as well. I am not sleepy. Now. See me in the morning. I don't do mornings!!!
I think I go back to the admin work now and leave the rest of the bloging for tomorrow.
Good night!
