Surprisingly I did not miss the train to London. Last time when I booked the ticket in advance to London I left the house later than I should have and inevitably missed the train from the New Street Station, so I had to take the longer one from the Snow Hill Station. I did not mind though, I like traveling with train. To be honest, it is much better than flying. You can see the places you are passing by. The only things I like about flying are the check-in, the security check, the boarding, the taking off and landing. I am a weirdo, I know. LOL That explains why I wanted (and still want) to be a flight attendant. I mean I want to try not as a career, but to try something else, to learn something different.
So I am on the train now, waiting for the departure.
Yesterday was the big day. One of them. The first one was when I made the decision. The second one was when I gave the ring to Gary and asked him to accept me as his partner. Yesterday was therefore the third one. I had a meeting with my line manager and my friend (yes, he is my friend as well), Andy. I wanted to meet with him to tell my decision of resigning from my position and leaving the company. I made up my mind months ago, but I did not want to tell the news over the phone or in an email. I think we must have the decency and respect of others to tell important things face to face. As it turned out I was right, he appreciated my effort. Poor man had a very tough day or days, my senior nurse is going to resign as well and Andy had a rough meeting yesterday before he met me. He hoped he could have a relaxing time with me. Bless him. I ruined him more. I was blunt, I told him that I was leaving. He was disappointed, but not surprised and wished me luck in my future. He also offered his contacts to use in New York.
It is tough though. I liked and still like to work for Vets Now, although it is not the same company I started to work for. It was like a big family when I started in last May. Less employees and more fun. Then the company had started to grow and changes have come inevitably. Departments, managers multiplied, commercial decisions were made and new forms were implemented. We started to shift from the friendly big family company to the big organization. It felt and feels like a break-up. You are not in the relationship any more, but you still remember and recall the happy moments and might try to go back and continue, but it is not possible any more. You are single and it is hard until you find the someone again. Well, the company is somewhere here now. It is not a big, professional, structured organization yet and not a family like company any more, but somewhere in between and it causes uncertainty in all employees. This is a tough time and there will be losses. I am one of them. Fortunately we separate without hard feelings and Andy reassured me that the doors will be open for me. Nice!
After our meeting I went in to the clinic to talk to Rachel, my nurse about the senior nurse position. It is a sensitive topic, because there were issues when she started at the company between her and Suzanne, the current senior nurse and although she wanted the job, she did not get it. I wanted to pursue her to apply, but I already knew her answer. Part of her wants to do it, but finds it hard to change attitude towards others. It happened with me as well when I started. You are pals, friends, buddies with others and suddenly you have to tell them frankly that they don’t do the job properly and in that instant you are not a friend any more. So I can understand Rachel’s concerns. However, she can’t imagine a new person taking over the position and learning everything about the clinic and the stuff while she knows everything. So at the end she gave me an honest answer. She either applies or resigns as well...
The rest of the evening was quiet, I packed my bag for the journey and chatted with Gary. It was so nice, because we couldn’t speak for quite a few days due to the crap internet connection at work and of course the time difference. I told him about my meeting and he was so happy for me. I love that guy, he loves me, supports me. He also showed pictures of our home. (I hope he doesn’t mind putting one on here...) Certainly I remember the nice and cosy apartment on the 11th Street, but it was nice to see and remember the good moments we spent there and going to spend in the future together. Amazing. Thanks Pumpkin!
